Sunday, December 21, 2008

The Hum

Since moving to the Pittsburgh area (slightly north of Pitt)and more specifically about two months now, I have been hearing a very low pitched hum. It seems to be more focused in my right ear and since I haven't been working in that time and it's cold here, I've been inside most of the time and that is where I usually hear it. It is almost constant, especially when there is low noise level (preparing for sleep or just waking up or merely sitting on the couch).

It usually is described as a diesel engine but I have also described it as a propeller plane, which is how I would describe it. When I hear it I usually can tell it is pulsating (actually, right now while I am typing this the pulses have slowed down by a factor of 2-3). That's interesting. About 1 minute and 20 seconds into this clip there is a simulated hum. Mine sounds almost exactly like this. Most of the time the pulses are not spaced evenly amongst each other.

Here is another clip from Unsolved Mysteries.

My daughter's mom (my SO)and my daughter live just about a block away up a hill with her best friend. I'm over there fairly often watching my daughter (more convenient for her and school) while they are at work. I hear it over there, as well. I've tolled my SO about it, she thinks it could be my tinnitus. Tinnitus, however, is usually high pitched sounds, not extremely low.

The most well known case of this hum is Taos, New Mexico, where quite a few residents are able to hear it. Most people say it is disturbing and even debillitating. While I agree it is disturbing to me, I mean... come on... look what else I've experienced.

I will have to admit, I have heard the Hum once before. I was about 15 at the time and we had just moved to a house just outside of a small town in Missouri. There was a 15 foot conifer tree just outside my bedroom window. I heard that damn hum quite often and it sounded like it was coming from the other side of that tree. I used to think that it was possibly some kind of extraterrestrial event or that it was a military application.

Back to the present: About 3 weeks ago, I heard in my bedroom a series of sounds that sounded like photo snapshots being taken. I also heard electronic static that seemed to not only come out of the radio, but from various other locations throughout the small room. At one point, it sounded like a heard a voice say... "Leave". I called my SO and her friend to come over and check it out. Of course, at that point it had stopped as suddenly as it had started.

I can't even begin to explain what the paranoiac in me is theorizing. I do know, I live in a "basement" apt. of an old typical northeastern house, almost like a row house, just not attached to any other buildings. There are 2 apts above me. The last tenant moved out just a few days after I moved in, and there hasn't been any renters since. I've been late with the rent (not purposely) and haven' even paid December's, yet the owners haven't contacted me. Humph.

The "snapshots" I was hearing (if it was projected by an outside source) may be explained by a microwave auditory effect. From Wikipedia "The clicks are generated directly inside the human head without the need of any receiving electronic device."

Thursday, December 18, 2008

It Hurts

Don't ever drink a liter of vodka in just a couple hours. My abdomen has been hurting for almost a week now. I think it may be pancreatitis. No job, no insurance, I guess I'll have to go to the ER. Shit.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

18 Years

Today marks the 18th year that I have been in a chronic "depersonalized" state. I'd like to say I've overcame some part of it, been somewhat successful, but alas, I can not at this point. I haven't had a steady job in almost a year, the Universe seems to be "dicking" me around. Ironic huh? 3-4 months behind on my car payment, don't have the rent, been out of blood pressure medicine for 2 months, out of my pain medication for my back issues, can't afford to go to the doctor. Getting my Effexor from someone else, luckily.

I drank a one liter bottle of Vodka within 3 hours the other night after taking an Ambien. I'm usually not a drinker. Passed out at SO's and her roommates. Jumped a 10 foot porched, walked a block to my place, trashed it, scared the bejeezus out of my cat, tried to stab myself with a kitchen knife (two marks on my stomach and a broken knife on the floor amidst the broken flourescent light; don't remember hardly any of it), then took off for a walk (downtown and then to the local Walmart (about 4 miles away) and back) all in 15-20 degree F. temp wearing boots, thin shorts, tank top and windbreaker. Swayed into traffic a couple of times (I was sober at that point). Some night. Needless to say, my liver was sore Friday and Saturday, not to mention the rest of my body from the walk and jump and ?????

I went to the theater and watched "The Day the Earth Stood Still". Decent Scifi remake. Special FX good.

At the beginning it shows a Keanu Reeves character uncovering an ET sphere somewhere in ice (forgot where exactly). Anyhoo, this is how the ET gets copy of DNA. The year was 1928. This movie was released on Phil's Bday, 12-12. (Entered 12-18-08 - Even though I got the Phil's Bday wrong, the following still stands.) Interesting. Coincidence, perhaps; but in my world I can't take anything for granted. I think long and hard about how I could be an ET beacon, or a passive or active Intelligence of some sort, benign or not. Like Phil's story Impostor, am I a ticking timebomb ready to detonate. Will the correct sequence of phrases or actions activate me?
NSA, CIA, FBI, DIA, etc., you should all be interested, very interested.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

24 and other tales - Oh, btw, Here is a pic of me

While I've been gainfully unemployed I've had the opportunity to find time to watch whole several if not all seasons of certain series. It began with Alias last year (in which I completed the whole series. I am caught up with Lost, Battlestar Galactica, and 24.

The funny thing is, as far as I'm concerned,The show in which you would think someone would experience deja vu in, is so far the one that I haven't. And that show would be Lost. ((Major update. You may now disregard the last statement. I had my first real deja vu moment while watching Lost. It was the very last episode of Season 5 at the beginning of the episode when Jacob and his nemesis are speaking with each other on the beach.)) With all the metaphysical and other phenomenon occurring? But I have experienced deja vu with Alias and Battlestar Galactica, which I've already explained on another post.

I made it through the first 4 seasons of 24 with no deja vu experiences. The familiarity began occurring in the episode of season 5 in which President Logan was being implicated concerning the terrorist attacks. His wife, and Secret Serviceman Aaron. All that was too familiar.

In season 6 when President Charles Palmer began succumbing to the failed assassination attempt and the Vice President attempted to take over the presidency because he thought the nukes should have been deployed. Especially near the beginning of the season when the two mostly responsible for the assassination attempt had the Chief of Staff "Tom ?" tied up in another room to keep him quiet, for the time, anyhow.

What's all this leading to? Hell if I know. If I knew the endgame, I may not have set up my presence bantering about it. But then again, I might have something more useful to say, than all ...... this ..................................