Friday, September 24, 2010


Obsessive Compulsive Disorder can be crippling to the sufferer, whether they have compulsions or not. As a child I had classic OCD (bad image in head repeatedly, then I had to repeatedly pray; or count steps until it "felt right").

Now it's mostly Pure O (Pure Obsessions).

For instance, one thing I keep thinking is that other people can't see me. Intellectually, I know this is not true, but the thought causes extreme anxiety. Most recently traffic patterns and occupation patterns are bothering me. I'll see a busy street and wonder how in the hell could so many people be out and about. Then I try to think where they were coming from, going to, etc. while also thinking about what their occupation is. And I wonder how could there be so many occupations. It's stupid, I have a college degree and am no village idiot. But my mind does not want to grasp it. It just doesn't click.

I could go on and on but I'm at Micky D's at the moment and need to get back on the road to DC.

Imagine OCD and Depersonalization as bed mates - that's me.

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