I'm currently on the road (in my car, not on foot). I'm currently in Taos, NM - home of many important cultural and art museums. Many creative types - artists, writers, painters, etc, have made Taos, New Mexico their home.
I really wanted to investigate (albeit a short lived investigation) the "hum" and possibly experience it. I've heard the hum in two places just north of Pittsburgh when I lived their. However, a significant portion of Taos, NM (at least 10%) "hears" the hum.
Here is my original post about the hum when I first heard it in Butler, PA.
Sure enough, when thing were quite in my hotel room this morning, upon awakening I could hear that faint hum that sounds like an 18-wheeler from a distance.
Yesterday, on highway 64, just east of Taos, I got out to take some pictures and when I turned the car off, I thought perhaps I didn't because I could steel feel the "hum" of the car. It wasn't sound as much as vibration. And later, at the Taos visitor center, I asked a lady about it and she verified that people say the focal point is about 10 miles east of Taos. I found that after the fact of my experiencing it myself.
Very interesting.
"An Exploration of Reasoned Madness" This blog is about my attempt at leading a structured, normal life while yet piecing together my fragmented mind.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
A Walk Revisited
It turns out that fate has dealt me a little money to begin my Walk after all. Not much, but it is a start. This time, because of impending Winter, I plan to visit family in Modesto California for a few days, and from their walk to Point Reyes Station, and from their through San Francisco and following highway 1 to Los Angeles. From LA I will begin traveling East into our Country's interior.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Update
Currently I do not have the funding to begin the "Walk Across America". Even though I would go in an nanosec if I could, at least some things have changed for the better here. I've met a very special friend, but I'm not sure if I should disclose everything about me, i.e. this web site.
She definitely lifts my spirit I think I do hers as well.
Currently looking for work in my field.
She definitely lifts my spirit I think I do hers as well.
Currently looking for work in my field.
Friday, September 24, 2010
OCD
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder can be crippling to the sufferer, whether they have compulsions or not. As a child I had classic OCD (bad image in head repeatedly, then I had to repeatedly pray; or count steps until it "felt right").
Now it's mostly Pure O (Pure Obsessions).
For instance, one thing I keep thinking is that other people can't see me. Intellectually, I know this is not true, but the thought causes extreme anxiety. Most recently traffic patterns and occupation patterns are bothering me. I'll see a busy street and wonder how in the hell could so many people be out and about. Then I try to think where they were coming from, going to, etc. while also thinking about what their occupation is. And I wonder how could there be so many occupations. It's stupid, I have a college degree and am no village idiot. But my mind does not want to grasp it. It just doesn't click.
I could go on and on but I'm at Micky D's at the moment and need to get back on the road to DC.
Imagine OCD and Depersonalization as bed mates - that's me.
Now it's mostly Pure O (Pure Obsessions).
For instance, one thing I keep thinking is that other people can't see me. Intellectually, I know this is not true, but the thought causes extreme anxiety. Most recently traffic patterns and occupation patterns are bothering me. I'll see a busy street and wonder how in the hell could so many people be out and about. Then I try to think where they were coming from, going to, etc. while also thinking about what their occupation is. And I wonder how could there be so many occupations. It's stupid, I have a college degree and am no village idiot. But my mind does not want to grasp it. It just doesn't click.
I could go on and on but I'm at Micky D's at the moment and need to get back on the road to DC.
Imagine OCD and Depersonalization as bed mates - that's me.
I'm on the Road, but in a Car
If you haven't been directed here by a search on Depersonalization, Derealization, or Bau gua tattoo then you probably have seen me in my 2002 gray Chevy Malibu sporting the name of this website on the back windshield.
Thank you for visiting. If you take your time and peruse the site you will find unbelievable yet true events that have taken place in my life. One day I will write a memoir. But for now, unless a publishing deal comes through, I will focus mainly on my fiction.
I still want to Walk Across America, but do not have the start-up funds to do so. If you would like to donate to "Walk" then please visit the sister site Impermanent Insanity Mobile
Thank you for visiting. If you take your time and peruse the site you will find unbelievable yet true events that have taken place in my life. One day I will write a memoir. But for now, unless a publishing deal comes through, I will focus mainly on my fiction.
I still want to Walk Across America, but do not have the start-up funds to do so. If you would like to donate to "Walk" then please visit the sister site Impermanent Insanity Mobile
Monday, August 30, 2010
Walk Across America
I was wishing to "Walk Across America" for many reasons, however at this time it looks as if this will not become an immediate reality. Mostly due to lack of sponsorship. There are so many reasons I wanted to do this. I was even going to write a "Position Statement" and I've already made the companion blog. It's "Impermanent Insanity Mobile".
I still haven't completely given up on it. You never know when you'll see me in your neck of the woods.
I still haven't completely given up on it. You never know when you'll see me in your neck of the woods.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Test Post
As Im still in a transitional facility, I have limited use of my laptop, however I have my iPhone most hours of the day. My posts will not be large (as that would require more time). I will try to update more frequently.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
If there ever was a rock bottom
If there ever was a rock bottom, I believe I was there. I am now recovering from my vastly dark depression, and am well on my way back to my norm. Unfortunately I was so sick I had to be hospitalized and am now in a transitional care unit. I will be discharged from there anywhere from 4 to 6 weeks. I get passes, mostly on weekends.
Thanks to all who may have meandered this way, and hope to talk to you soon. I have limited access to internet currently.
Thanks to all who may have meandered this way, and hope to talk to you soon. I have limited access to internet currently.
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