OCD

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder can be crippling to the sufferer, whether they have compulsions or not. As a child I had classic OCD (bad image in head repeatedly, then I had to repeatedly pray; or count steps until it "felt right").

Now it's mostly Pure O (Pure Obsessions).

For instance, one thing I keep thinking is that other people can't see me. Intellectually, I know this is not true, but the thought causes extreme anxiety. Most recently traffic patterns and occupation patterns are bothering me. I'll see a busy street and wonder how in the hell could so many people be out and about. Then I try to think where they were coming from, going to, etc. while also thinking about what their occupation is. And I wonder how could there be so many occupations. It's stupid, I have a college degree and am no village idiot. But my mind does not want to grasp it. It just doesn't click.

I could go on and on but I'm at Micky D's at the moment and need to get back on the road to DC.

Imagine OCD and Depersonalization as bed mates - that's me.

I'm on the Road, but in a Car

If you haven't been directed here by a search on Depersonalization, Derealization, or Bau gua tattoo then you probably have seen me in my 2002 gray Chevy Malibu sporting the name of this website on the back windshield.

Thank you for visiting. If you take your time and peruse the site you will find unbelievable yet true events that have taken place in my life. One day I will write a memoir. But for now, unless a publishing deal comes through, I will focus mainly on my fiction.

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